Why Walmart?

So today is my last day at Target, and I am moving on to Wal-Mart.  I've had so many people ask why in the world would I do that, so I wanted to explain.

First there are the obvious things such as pay, hours, no more food ave stress, having the chance to work with my best friend eventually etc

However- there are also some personal reasons that have nothing to do with any of that.  Now that my depression has gotten better and I'm better handling things, the next thing to tackle is my anxiety.  At target, I've made sure to put myself in situations to avoid any possible anxiety attacks or issues.  I'm too used to it being like that, that even trying to change it there wouldn't work.  I need to overcome this instead of continuing to hide from it.  So I need thrown in the deep end, I can't take this slowly it's never going to work.  Starting over somewhere completely new is the only way to do it.  So that's why I'm making the move, not just for pay and hours, but also to be able to overcome some personal issues.

Just a Reminder

of awesome we all are :)  I love these songs...you are amazing, no matter who you are or where you come from...and I think these songs really have that message behind it








I didn't like the video for the next 2 songs, so here are the lyrics-
Lady Gaga- Born this way

[Intro:]
It doesn't matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M
Just put your paws up
'cause you were Born This Way, Baby

[Verse:]
My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars

She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir

"There's nothing wrong with loving who you are"
She said, "'Cause he made you perfect, babe"

"So hold your head up girl and you'll go far,
Listen to me when I say"

[Chorus:]
I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

[Post-chorus:]
Oh there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Oh there ain't no other way
Baby I was born-
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don't be a drag -Just be a queen [x3]
Don't be!

[Verse:]
Give yourself prudence
And love your friends
Subway kid, rejoice your truth

In the religion of the insecure
I must be my self, respect my youth

A different lover is not a sin
Believe capital H-I-M (Hey hey hey)
I love my life I love this record and
Mi amore vole fe yah (Love needs faith)

[Repeat chorus + post-chorus]

[Bridge:]
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're Lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'cause baby you were born this way

No matter gay, straight, or bi,
lesbian, transgendered life,
I'm on the right track baby,
I was born to survive.
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made,
I'm on the right track baby,
I was born to be brave.

[Repeat chorus]

[Outro/refrain:]

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!
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 Perfect by Pink

Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me

You're so mean when you talk
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead.

So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(ohh ohhhhhhh)

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me

The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?

Pretty, pretty, pretty

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing than you are perfect to me
(you're perfect, you're perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me

A Genuine love of Christ

I have to tell you about this woman who came in to Target around Christmastime.  She came in a day or two before my cousin Jason was to come home for a 2 week leave from Afghanistan.  We somehow got on the topic of it while I was checking her out on register, and she brought up a relative she has also serving and she always adds anyone she hears about serving to her prayer list.  So she asked his name and everything like that and I thanked her for the prayers and went about the rest of my shift.  I kind of forgot about the incident until a month or so ago she come over to food ave and the first thing she said was "How's Jason doing?"  It completely threw me off.  The fact that she remembered who I was, who Jason was, and took the time to ask about him.  She added that she was still praying for him.  I then ran into her yesterday and again it was the same, "How's Jason doing?  Have you gotten to talk to him recently"  I think it was just amazing how much she cared for someone she barely knew (me) and a complete stranger (Jason)  then she began asking about me and how I was doing and how she was going to add me to her prayers too.  I think she is just an amazing example of the true love of Christ.  I have now of course added her to my prayers and I look forward to the next time I see her.  I love and enjoy her and it's nice to know there are still amazing people out in this world.

Awesome thinking- and Being an Example :)

I've been trying to find super quote for this entry, since I don't have a whole lot to say at the moment (shocker) haha

"For every affliction the world throws at us, the Savios has a remedy of superior healing power."  -Elder Tad R. Callister.  I think this quote is just amazing.  It is so reassuring and a huge reminder that there is a much larger plan in mind then we even realize.  Something I mentioned in my testimony last night was a small line in my Patriarchal Blessing says about how I knew many of the things I would face here on earth but I accepted without hesitation- boy was I dumb!  But no, I'm so grateful for that line because it tells me how much everything is worth.  We're given challenges and trials to learn...if we never had to deal with anything, we wouldn't learn anything.  I know that Heavenly Father won't give me or anyone else anything that we can't handle.  I love life!  and I love everyone in it, I couldn't ask for more awesome people.


So something else I wanted to bring up was something that has been big in the news lately in what happened at BYU with one of their star players being kicked off the team for violating the honor code- if you haven't heard anything about it check it out http://www.sltrib.com/sltrib/cougars/51342026-88/davies-byu-team-code.html.csp  BYU's honor code isn't just to be a pain in the butt and make people feel inadequate, that honor code are the same standards, we as members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints believe in.  There's been a lot of debate about this, some people applauding BYU, and others criticizing their choice.  That honor code was made known to everyone from day one, and they aren't going to bend the rules for one person, for one game, for one situation.  It's what we believe.  Elder L. Tom Perry said last night during a CES Young Adult Fireside that "Our voices must be heard in opposition, through these dangerous trends, which are destined to destroy the faith of mankind."  We have to be an example to everyone around us.  We have to be the ones to help lead others back to where they belong.  What BYU did was commendable and I am proud of them and proud to be be standing up for those same standards.

The Difference

As I continue my therapy sessions, I've noticed a huge difference.  I've been doing so well lately and it's just so freakin weird.  I mean their are days when I'll be driving, or working or anything thinking I'm depressed cause that's what I have been so used to and it takes a few minutes to realize that no, I'm not depressed...I feel good.  That's not to say that I don't still have a few rough times or bad days or anything, but it's happening so much less often...and those times are not as low as they used to be.  It's so weird but such a good weird.  My medicine and therapy are working....and of course Heavenly Father.  None of this would be possible if it weren't the strength He's given me to get help and all the opportunities He has provided me. 
Joseph Fielding McConkie said "It is not the design of Heaven that we be rescued from all difficult situations.  Rather it is the Lord's will that we learn to handle them."  Which is all totally true, but it kinda SUCKS sometimes haha.  But it's just an amazing difference lately it's hard to even comprehend.