I know we're supposed to forgive everybody no matter what wrong they have done to us, and I have to say, that is something I really struggle with. Not only forgiving others, but myself as well. I still get guilty about things that happened so long ago, things I've already apologized for and taken care of. My biggest struggle is forgiving others who have hurt me. I still get so upset about things people have done or said to me, and it's partly because of some of the patterns of thinking my therapist has come across....but because of this, it causes levels of trust to be comprised. Anyone who has hurt me, I find very difficult to trust in later years.
However, when I know that person didn't mean to hurt me, it's a little easier to move past. For example, someone at church this past week made a comment that really hurt my feelings, and I say all through Sacrament meeting thinking about it. But I know that he didn't mean to hurt my feelings. I know that he's unaware some of things that effect what he commented about, and even though it bothers me still a little, I have forgiven him because I know he didn't mean it.
I just pray that someday I am able to get to the point that I know I have fully forgiven others and myself and forget about things that no longer matter anymore. I know it's important, I know that if we are unable to forgive others, that we are not doing what Heavenly Father has asked of us.
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Forgiving is tough! I struggle with the same thing you do, because I feel like I want to forgive and forget. Sometimes I just have to give myself some time . . . that helps me let go. I love all the things you are learning and trying to do!
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