Thanks

I've been having a really rough couple of weeks.  I've been more depressed than I've been since High School and my therapist wanted to put me in the hospital.  I told her I wanted to wait cause that morning I had been feeling better and she said because I've been so open and honest about everything that she trusted me and gave me several numbers to hold on to and a promise that if it didn't get better or got worse I would go to the hospital.  Well last night I almost went in, and today I called off work and almost went in.  One of the hardest things about coming back to the church and dealing with this is that even know I have a testimony and I KNOW the church is true and everything else, at the moment it is so difficult to believe it so to speak or feel it at that time and can only hope I'll get out of this rut and feel it all again.  *sigh* 

I'd really like to thank the people who have been helping me out so much through this (besides of course family, my doctors and therapists...man I'm crazy)
Sister Chamberlain and Sister Johnson the Missionaries.  Andrea, and Shandee my visiting teachers, Shandee's husband Aaron who gave me a blessing last night, and of course the bestest friend ever Kylie and her daughter Keira cause they are a huge reason I WANT to pull through...