Nothing super spiritual today

I have been having a very extremely rough week or two.  My depression and anxiety are becoming so unbearable.  For the most part I feel completely alone and just sit in my room thinking/crying.  One of my home teachers had caught wind of some of what's going on because of my facebook page, he asked if there was anything he could do and I just said no.  I don't like asking people to do things for me, and I didn't really know what could have been done even if I had asked.  I'm trying really hard to rely on the Lord and the scriptures but it's a serious struggle and I'm not getting far.  I spent this morning writing letters to the few missionaries I'm in contact with hoping it would help some, but it didn't really change anything.  *sigh*