Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I have a lot to say- too bad the people I'd like to say it to probably won't ever see this

I am so sick of being treated like dirt.  I was in a situation with a friend "Bob" that I let him take advantage of me for so long and when I finally stood up for myself I'm the one who gets treated like crap.  Are you serious?  I did this person a favor, a HUGE favor that did a lot of damage to me, including having to move back home.  I spent time being understanding and not too worried about it being taken care of right away.  I was also "understanding" while Bob put himself in certain situations and then did nothing but sit around and complain about it instead of doing something about it.  Well two years later, I decide that I'm done with hearing the excuses and I stand up for myself to get this favor taken care of.  The only thing I did was tell him how serious I was about it this time, I was not a jerk, I treated him like a human being, I still cared about him and considered him a friend...and what happens?  I am the one who gets treated like dirt.  He acts like a jerk to me, and then when things are all taken care of I get a "Have a nice life"?!?!?!?!?!  What in the world?!?!?!  I am the one who had the right and the reasons to act like a jerk.  You were the one who took advantage of me and everything I did for you.  How does this even make sense to you?  I don't get it.  Well I hope you are happy with the way you left things because don't dare try to come back asking for or expecting anything in the world, because you won't be getting it.  I hope the people around you learn what you're really like real fast because things may be fine now...but soon, your little games and tricks will be up and they will realize the real you.

Now there is "Bob #2"...I considered him a very good friend and I did a lot of things to help him.  Anything I could in any aspect of the friendship...and I was treated like dirt...the thing is, I didn't acknowledge it back then.  He'd pick on me, take advantage over the fact that I considered him a good friend and would do a lot for him, and pushed me to breakdowns...I'm not saying Bob2 was always a jerk, he actually was really great about half the time...but the rest of the time- I just didn't deserve any of it and yet I put up with it...

Let me just say, I have learned a lot about what I deserve from these (and a few other friendships)  I've learned where the limits are and where the point is that I'm being taken advantage of. I'm a good person, and I try to be a good friend...but apparently that's my biggest weakness.  Well like I said, I've learned a lot.  There is only one person left in the entire world that I actually trust, that I know will not treat me like this and that's Kylie.  She's my sister, and I truly would do anything in the world for her, and give her everything I had or everything I could to help her if she needed it...but I know that she wouldn't be taking advantage of me.  She's my best friend, my sister, and her and her amazing daughter Keira are the greatest people ever.  I don't know what I would ever do without them. :)

2 comments:

Kay said...

Ms. Rosie!! I'm so sorry to hear about what you have been going through lately via a blog entry!! :-( However, I am really happy to hear that you have someone in your life who you can talk to and lean on without second guessing if they are going to take advantage of you or not. I hope things start turning around for you chick and remember, Karma's a bitch. Especially to those who take advantage of genuinely good people!! :-)

Andrea said...

Its definitely an empowering feeling to stand up for yourself. Good job and keep going. I think half the battle is believe that you deserve to be well treated! Which you do - good for you for asking for it!