Rough Time---But getting better

So I've been having kind of a rough time lately.  There are a lot of factors going into this.  Part of it us just that I think my meds need changed around and I had to cancel my most recent doctor's appointment so I haven't been in awhile. Lately, a friend of mine has seemed pretty unsupportive lately and it's upsetting me.  I know they're not doing it on purpose so I've been trying not to get mad...but it's been hard.  I also know that in this most recent rough time I can be doing nothing but annoying a few of the people around me, including just always freaking out, etc.  So I've been working on not bothering them or anyone else (not counting this blog because no one has to read it and I'm just kind of venting to no one lol).  Here's the thing- the more I bottle up, the worse I feel.  The more I let out, the more I annoy and piss people off.  So I'm stuck either way.

Specifically lately besides just the generalness of what I suffer from, I've always hit a pretty low feeling of failure.  Failure to my friends, family, school, any job I've ever had, finances, progress with my therapist, church, and other stuff.  I'm at a very difficult point right now and I just feel completely alone.  I've been trying hard to focus on the church and trust in the Lord, but when I get to these points, it's very difficult.  I still have a testimony and I still know things like I'm not alone and Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love me, but it's just so hard to feel and acknowledge.  So for now, I just feel completely alone and try to face this all---I will say recently I went to the movies with someone and had fun and got my mind off of stuff for awhile, so that was a huge help.  These "episodes" of how I've been feeling can last anywhere from a few hours, to a few days, or more.
Hopefully soon this will pass and I'll be feeling good again because trust me, I am not always like this anymore since I've gotten help, and have never wanted to be like this.  I just need people to bear with me.  I know Heavenly Father will help me.  Today started out difficult, but by the end of church I was feeling much better.  I'm feeling pretty good now, so hopefully this is the end of my "rough time"  cause that would be super awesome :) haha