Things have been rough lately. I feel like I say this a lot? I go through weird episodes; I'll be great for a period of time, and then I have a really rough time. The rough times seem to last from a few hours to a few days; I'm starting to come out of my most recent rough time. There has just been a lot of stuff going on, and it just piles up and gets overwhelming. A lot of feeling undeserving and worthlessness. It's times like these I could not be more grateful for the gospel. Granted, when I hit these low points sometimes it's hard to 'feel' everything and feel the Spirit and everything, but I always have a testimony and I always know what the truth is, it just gets difficult. But lucky for me, I have some awesome friends who help me out :)
My therapist comes back in a couple of weeks, which in theory should be a good thing, but our insurance told the doctors office I was being terminated again (again, their screw up, we JUST got it finally taken care of from January when they did this) and I can't get my mom to call about it, so until that happens, I'm not making any appointments because I can't afford the full price. It also will cause problems with my medicine. Not much, normally I pay $0.80 and without insurance I pay $8...that's 10x more! *sigh*
So I finally finished my semester! I just have to take my finals! woo hoo! That is one little bit of stress off my shoulders. I'm excited to start my next semester with a clean slate. Now that I am working at Marriott, it makes school a little bit easier. I am in a job in my field of interest! Now, when the time comes, I have my foot in the door, I have some experience to start with. I never expected to be done with school and go straight to hotel management, I knew I would have to start out at the ground level, which is why I wanted to get to that ground level now, while I still had a couple years of school. I'm looking into an internship at Disney World that my cousin did this past year. It would be really super awesome, all the change just freaks me out. I'm applying though when they start accepting in September, I'm just not doing it in a calm way haha
My callings are going well I think. I haven't really heard otherwise. That is one thing that overwhelms me sometimes, especially being the Compassionate Service Leader and making sure I'm doing my best to take care of everyone the best I can, which causes some frustration when I'm the one who needs help, but it's all good.
So I've started working on family history, and for right now I'm pretty much entering in information that my parents already have. So right now it's not too difficult, but I've started trying to find some information on my dad's side. His grandfather on his dad's side, pretty much vanished out of thin air. We cannot find ANY information past him anywhere and it's getting very frustrating. I say he got dropped off by aliens, which explains a lot about our family haha!
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Rose - You're incredible. You do so much! It's amazing what happens when you put the Lord first. Good luck on your family history work. It can be a lot of fun. Who knows, you may just figure out which kind of aliens your ancestors came from. :)
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